...so, I haven't shaved since the last time I shaved and posted.
Here's what's been up with me.
Some of you may have seen my post about my friend and musical jam partner. I've been trying to help his parents get access to all the things needed while he's in the hospital. We are all doubting that his life will ever be the same as it was. I fear he has had his first schizophrenic break with reality. He's 32. It's not good. His parents live 600 miles away, and he's a bit of a loner. I've promised his parents that I will watch over and keep them informed, and that when he's released they can count in my help in making whatever plan we gotta make. At this point, he's so drugged it's unclear what's going on other than crazy paranoia and anxiety, and all the acting out that comes with that.
He's been really struggling, and may be in the hospital for for a little while. I've visited him this week whenever permitted. Today, for the first time in a week, he connected with reality. As I sat in front of him this afternoon, he was finally able to have a coherent conversation. It was really hard to keep a stiff upper lip today.
Watching someone's twist in the wind like that hurts. My heart breaks a little bit when I think about how scared, anxious, agitated, confused, and angry he must be right now. I hurt inside because I wish could make it better for my friend, and I can't.
But for the grace of God go I. I mean that.
This doesn't have a point. I've had some struggles in my personal life in the last year that have tested me. Lately, one over-riding thought.... Be grateful for whatever you have. You think you got trouble? If you're not locked in a secure facility, blown into orbit with Haldol... You still have chance to be OK on your own. You think life sucks now? Add "is on fire", "paralyzed", or "terminal" to the mix. Things can always be far, far worse than they are now.
Soon, I'll be back as much as I really want to be. I miss being on TSD. You guys are alright!
Now somebody else post something so we can move on....
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