For the last few months my time on the web has dwindled considerably. Never been on face book or other modern social media platforms, but since TSN closed down, I’ve continued to post sporadically on four internet fora, two shave and two guitar. It’s nearing a year and a half since Gayle passed and I’ve been emotionally charged, to say the least. Without question, nothing I experienced previously prepared me in the slightest for what has been the most hellacious time of my life. Nothing is as it was or was supposed to be. As a result and quite bizarrely, the next chapter in my timeline must undergo a rewrite. Since last autumn I have gradually but steadily realized that I don’t want to age alone. From the day I met Gayle my happiest times have been when I’m with my family. So long story short, I am uprooting and rerooting. In just the last few days I’ve signed contracts to sell my home and buy another. Estimated closings and move by early to mid autumn. My younger daughter is simultaneously selling her apartment. She, her husband, daughter and I will be moving into one big “father-daughter” home 10 minutes drive (no highways!) from my other daughter and her family. I’ve come to accept the reality that Gayle is gone, and really all I want is to spend time with our kids and grandchildren. They’re all on board, including my sons-in-law. My home is full of over 40 years of our stuff, plus the remnants of my folks’ and Gayle’s parents’ homes (plus her grandmothers) As I go through things one by one I ask myself, “Do I want to move this to my new home?” If I answer no it either gets tossed, recycled or given away. What remains will be packed and moved. Predictable shave den clearance sale at some point this summer - as good a time to downsize as any! So, that’s what’s been going on here. I hope you’re all well. Peace and love to all
Been there, done that though it's been 5 years since my beloved passed. Tried a bunch of different stuff including getting married again. That was a mistake. Sometimes your heart just can't/won't let go. Like you, I have my children/grands/great grands very close and that helps so very much I wish you well on your new journey and may the good Lord bless and keep you.
Charlie, my friend, while nothing can assuage the loss of your soulmate, being close to your family will be a great comfort. My sincerest wishes for peace and tranquility in your life.
Thanks I’m ready to turn the corner. All prayers graciously accepted! Thank you poppi. Being with the little ones is great! I’m getting to know them as people, and they me. We’re making memories. Thank you, Joseph. I know this is the right thing to do for me and my family. It sounds corny, but for me this will be my modern day version of living on Waltons Mountain.
